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someone should probably ask me "so what have you been doing for x amount of time since we spoke last?" because i keep meaning to update. but the only things that make me update seem to be little random yet specific thoughts. so here's my random yet specific thing for tonight, and i think i've mentioned it before, but it gets its own post today: i have music in my head ALL THE TIME. i mean it is playing when i wake up in the morning. it plays all day in my head. it is playing when i go to sleep. i was on meds once and the music stopped and i didn't know, and then one day i went off them and it started again and that's when i realized it stopped.

the music generally plays exactly as i heard it, sometimes in full, sometimes in a loop or snatches. it's pretty much always in the correct key and i can hear all the guitar and all that stuff (more if i've paid attention to a part, so i can't always tell you much about the drums, for example). i don't always have lyrics but i have a sense of the cadence of the vocal. often i do have full lyrics. and it's ALWAYS there. someone will comment on how quiet a room is and i won't have noticed because i've had my head on shuffle or something.

do any of you have this? what do you do about it? do you do anything? do you like it? dislike it? does it ever get in your way? does it ever feel heavy or frustrating? ever get a headache from it? ever feel relieved when one song kicks another one out of the way? ever feel even more relieved when you hear actual music and it drowns out what's in your head? if you're listening to one piece of music and trying to recall another one, do you have to turn off what you're hearing in the room before you can hear what's in your head? ever have multiple pieces playing at once? can you listen to them simultaneously at all, even for a few seconds at a time, even if not quite at the same level for both/all?

Date: 2007-04-15 09:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] finstergrrrl.livejournal.com
lol no, not unhelpful :) sometimes i really have no clue whether people share my experience or not. i was talking to my friend geoff at work about music and he's totally mystified by me - he doesn't collect music in the same way at all. he really wouldn't own music, i think, on his own - as it is, what little he has, he stole from his brother - he mostly listens to the radio. which is cool, i mean, the radio is sometimes a relief from my head :) but i have to be able to listen to whatever is going on with me emotionally, y'know? i need to have it at my fingertips. apparently if i'm in a car listening to music and it gets turned off, i physically start shaking! i had to be told. i didn't know.

what have i been doing! it's a good question :) and i just started to answer and the answer became really long, so i'm making a post just for you!

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