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Aug. 20th, 2009 07:00 pm"i was waiting for the kind of solution where God reaches down and touches you with his magic wand and all of a sudden i would be fixed, like a broken toaster oven. but this was not the way it happened. instead, i got one angstrom unit better, day by day." -anne lamott
i needed to read that. i keep thinking i will just wake up one morning and be all better, like when you pull the bandaid off as a kid and the boo-boo is gone, and every time i'm disappointed and frustrated that talking myself into being okay didn't work. granted, i have external pressure on me to be fixed, to be okay. but if i first forgive myself for being human and having a heart that breaks, then the relief of the internal pressure will help me to resist the external influence. that's the working theory, anyway.
i needed to read that. i keep thinking i will just wake up one morning and be all better, like when you pull the bandaid off as a kid and the boo-boo is gone, and every time i'm disappointed and frustrated that talking myself into being okay didn't work. granted, i have external pressure on me to be fixed, to be okay. but if i first forgive myself for being human and having a heart that breaks, then the relief of the internal pressure will help me to resist the external influence. that's the working theory, anyway.
