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Dec. 14th, 2005 03:08 pmi'll try not to include contents of memes. because dude.
( i promise i will write a real entry one of these days )
( i promise i will write a real entry one of these days )
Dec. 14th, 2005
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Dec. 14th, 2005 03:10 pmugh. i'm having one of those days.
i don't really know what i want to write here. i thought i did. but then i actually started typing and everything flew out of my head, replaced by feeling generally malignant. i stayed home from one job and i need to call in to the other one. i slept until 11 a.m. and if i didn't think it'd be very bad for me i'd go sleep some more. i'm still in my robe. all this is because i've worked 26 hours in the past two days and i woke up too wretchedly tired to function. i know, i'm a wuss, but it's no use. i'm not sick, just feeling like crap. and i'm so fucking tired of thinking about/being at/trying to find work.
my new job is good. the people i work with are irreverent, skilled, funny, and laid-back. no problems there.
i think i made a mistake keeping the best buy job. i enjoyed working there when i was working mornings and when i was working only about twenty hours a week. however, i've been scheduled for twenty hours this week again and i'm already working forty hours at my day job. plus, i've figured out that while i love opening at best buy, i hate closing. HATE closing. i get out of there at midnight, get home maybe twenty minutes later, and then have to calm down enough to sleep until i get up at 6 a.m. and i don't do well on five hours of sleep a night. the only redeeming quality is getting to work with fun people. but i can hang out with them outside of work if i want to, y'know?
so i need to get out from under this situation. only question is how. i requested that my hours be cut to no more than 8 per week at best buy. apparently they're obliging me for next week. i want to quit. part of me really wants to just call up right now and quit over the phone, donesville. but i hate doing that if there aren't extraordinary circumstances. the only two times i've quit with no notice were under what i considered to be extraordinary circumstances.*
so that leaves me with either a) giving notice again (this time for two weeks) or b) sticking it out for four weeks until the season ends. i'd been determined to stick it out, but i'm hating it more and more. this is a bad time of year to be miserable.
oh, and i have another job interview tomorrow. more informational than anything, but god i'm tired of looking for jobs.
*extraordinary circumstance #1: job sucked, boss was hitting on me. extraordinary circumstance #2: job sucked, was left to close second night on job with someone who had been working there two weeks. neither of us had any idea what we were doing. drama not worth money.
edit: just noticed this post is labeled 69969. huh huh.
i don't really know what i want to write here. i thought i did. but then i actually started typing and everything flew out of my head, replaced by feeling generally malignant. i stayed home from one job and i need to call in to the other one. i slept until 11 a.m. and if i didn't think it'd be very bad for me i'd go sleep some more. i'm still in my robe. all this is because i've worked 26 hours in the past two days and i woke up too wretchedly tired to function. i know, i'm a wuss, but it's no use. i'm not sick, just feeling like crap. and i'm so fucking tired of thinking about/being at/trying to find work.
my new job is good. the people i work with are irreverent, skilled, funny, and laid-back. no problems there.
i think i made a mistake keeping the best buy job. i enjoyed working there when i was working mornings and when i was working only about twenty hours a week. however, i've been scheduled for twenty hours this week again and i'm already working forty hours at my day job. plus, i've figured out that while i love opening at best buy, i hate closing. HATE closing. i get out of there at midnight, get home maybe twenty minutes later, and then have to calm down enough to sleep until i get up at 6 a.m. and i don't do well on five hours of sleep a night. the only redeeming quality is getting to work with fun people. but i can hang out with them outside of work if i want to, y'know?
so i need to get out from under this situation. only question is how. i requested that my hours be cut to no more than 8 per week at best buy. apparently they're obliging me for next week. i want to quit. part of me really wants to just call up right now and quit over the phone, donesville. but i hate doing that if there aren't extraordinary circumstances. the only two times i've quit with no notice were under what i considered to be extraordinary circumstances.*
so that leaves me with either a) giving notice again (this time for two weeks) or b) sticking it out for four weeks until the season ends. i'd been determined to stick it out, but i'm hating it more and more. this is a bad time of year to be miserable.
oh, and i have another job interview tomorrow. more informational than anything, but god i'm tired of looking for jobs.
*extraordinary circumstance #1: job sucked, boss was hitting on me. extraordinary circumstance #2: job sucked, was left to close second night on job with someone who had been working there two weeks. neither of us had any idea what we were doing. drama not worth money.
edit: just noticed this post is labeled 69969. huh huh.
disclaimer
Dec. 14th, 2005 05:02 pmi don't want to make my friends who really work hard for a living feel bad. i know most of you work much harder than i ever have. i think i'm really finding it soul-sucking because it's not important to me. it's not toward a degree or raising kids or saving the world or anything. the only profit anyone gets from it is just that - profit - most of which goes to shareholders. so at the end of the day i feel i've worked this hard for nothing. at least at my other job, i can see the people i'm helping at the end of the day. i know how it affects them. that makes a difference to me. i'm making sure people who are temporarily single parents know where to go for childcare. i'm getting the word out on education options for people trying to finish college. i'm advertising diversions for people who have too many worries in their lives and need something fun to distract them. that i can do comfortably. this other job is just money in pockets.
posting madness
Dec. 14th, 2005 08:19 pmi am in love with my chemical romance's "the ghost of you." just sayin'. the first time i heard it, i thought it would be an amazing song if someone different were singing it. i've changed my opinion. i think it's an amazing song and the singer is exactly right. i'm open to hearing who would do a good cover of it though. any ideas?
maybe i should figure out enough guitar to do my own cover of it...yeah! the whole song is within my vocal range, which isn't the case with a lot of the songs i like.
on a separate but also musical note (say, c-sharp), my brother's group has a myspace account. there's a little music up there, so you can hear what they sound like. my brother isn't on the two recordings they have out at the moment, but they've recorded a live album that should be available super soon! they're also on cdbaby, so there's more listening to be had:
ear candy
scattered flurries
maybe i should figure out enough guitar to do my own cover of it...yeah! the whole song is within my vocal range, which isn't the case with a lot of the songs i like.
on a separate but also musical note (say, c-sharp), my brother's group has a myspace account. there's a little music up there, so you can hear what they sound like. my brother isn't on the two recordings they have out at the moment, but they've recorded a live album that should be available super soon! they're also on cdbaby, so there's more listening to be had:
ear candy
scattered flurries
