lol no, not unhelpful :) sometimes i really have no clue whether people share my experience or not. i was talking to my friend geoff at work about music and he's totally mystified by me - he doesn't collect music in the same way at all. he really wouldn't own music, i think, on his own - as it is, what little he has, he stole from his brother - he mostly listens to the radio. which is cool, i mean, the radio is sometimes a relief from my head :) but i have to be able to listen to whatever is going on with me emotionally, y'know? i need to have it at my fingertips. apparently if i'm in a car listening to music and it gets turned off, i physically start shaking! i had to be told. i didn't know.

what have i been doing! it's a good question :) and i just started to answer and the answer became really long, so i'm making a post just for you!